One-Sentence Highlights From Brent's Life - 2/5 - 5/5/13

2/5/13

High highs, then some other complications, unexpected bumps, questions, wishing, dwelling.

　

2/6/13

Met my new "Integration Group."

　

2/7/13

I was feeling kind of heavy and beat-down, not in the mood to talk, and I mentioned like, "I think I need some burning sage to help cleanse my energy," and David Ames actually went and got some sage and burned it while giving me a blessing which really helped me open up and it was the nicest, most special thing anyone has done for me in a long time and I'm so thankful and appreciative.

　

2/8/13

Before noon I was so productive and "in the zone" at work, and then after that was so "zoned out.

　

2/9/13

Some major victories in the household situation.

　

2/10/13

Sometimes I feel so dramatic, like every single day with me is both "I'm the king of everything and I fucking love it," to "I hate everything and I want to die already," but I usually average it all out and just say I'm doing "fine" or "okay."

　

2/11/13

VITA went well, except I felt like Victoria was trying to make things unnecessarily complicated for me, but I know that's her job.

　

2/12/13

I got a free large pizza at Pie Hole for being one of their financiers, and the staff didn't think I was going to eat an entire 17-inch pizza all by myself in one sitting. lol

　

2/13/13

A lot of deep conversations with Glen, Bruce, my I-Group.

　

2/14/13

When I was still in bed in the morning, I got a text and it was from the last random guy I had a date with saying "Happy Valentintine's Day!" and it was really touching to me even though 1.) it's misspelled, and 2.) I still don't believe anything he says.

　

2/15/13

Tiffany Walls baby shower.

　

2/16/13

The Illinois governor showed up in the morning at VITA.

　

2/17/13

After midnight I decided to stop into Sofo instead of going to Mans Country and there I met Robert M. and his boyfriend Darren whom I took back to my place for an amazing 3-way.

　

2/18/13

Spent most of the day thinking I'd lost my talisman.

　

2/19/13

Casey came over to my place, then I went over to his place, then I came back home in the middle of the night and was too sleepy to go to work so I called in sick for the morning.

　

2/20/13

I ate a few sloppy joes and tots before leaving to go to what Sheri called my "men's meeting."

　

2/21/13

One of those strange Facebook things happened when I was Facebook chatting with someone (Joshua about possibly moving in together) who asked me how I knew someone else whom he knew (David A.) and right then the someone else Facebook-invited me to a Free Bradley Manning rally on Saturday and I just happened to be wearing my "Free Bradley Manning" t-shirt and we talked about it while riding the bus together that night.

　

2/22/13

Long story shorter, I just so happened to meet C-Baby (whose usual name, as it turns out, is Carlos) and he asked me out for a drink with some of his friends and I managed not to scream and jump up and down or anything.

　

2/23/13

I told everyone at Elizabeth Stone's 30th birthday party that I was leaving to go see Sharon Needles at Spin, but instead of doing that I stopped in for a drink at Downtown despite the 20 police cars and crowds of people who were rioting apparently.

　

2/24/13

I felt very happy and proud of myself that I was able to rent a van, move everything out of my storage unit into the van, then out of the van and into my apartment, and return the van in 3 hours.

　

2/25/13

Decided to go see Fourplay again and on the way home I ran into Val again who is pretty much the greatest person ever and I felt so fortunate to be surrounded by so many great people.

　

2/26/13

Since Gloria isn't at work this week (she usually takes a week of vacation during her birthday) the office manager and everyone comes to me which great overall but I got a little pain in my neck so I decided to get a massage instead of doing laundry.

　

2/27/13

One month after my New Warrior Training Adventure weekend, I feel so much different and my Integration Group has been very important to me.

　

2/28/13

This was the day when they had the mats laid out at the yoga anatomy class and David A. couldn't wait the 7 minutes that bus-tracker said the Western bus would be there so we took a taxi and I told him not to "get rooffied and passed around anymore".

　

3/1/13

Chip Reid from Muskogee told me that I was in a pick-up bar and therefore did not want to hear "I'll call you next Tuesday" as an answer, but hey, we all have things about ourselves that we need to work on.

　

3/2/13

My breakdown happened.

　

3/3/13

Virginia help me put my breakdown into perspective, and then I met up with Joshua and we spent time with the Temple Terraincognita.

　

3/4/13

I had a lot of things to get done on a Monday morning before work, then after work I did VITA which went well except for the last client who was a mentally-disabled 60 year-old woman whose tax return I could have pushed through easily except for the reviewers who were unwilling to just accept the obvious fact of her mental disability and insisted on putting her through interrogations that she was clearly not capable of handling, and Ellen was talking shit about the client right to her face and I'm quite sure Victoria probably has some mental issues of her own.

　

3/5/13

Saying goodbye FOREVER to Colin was good, but when he said, "Don't leave yet, can't we get naked first?" and then ended up giving me a lazy handjob while watching Millionaire Matchmaker was THE WORST and made me want to die.

　

3/6/13

I talked about my breakdown with my I-Group while never actually telling any of the specifics.

　

3/7/13

Didn't get much sleep, felt kind of beat-down, didn't do my homework for anatomy class, and didn't get to ride the bus with David A. after class.

　

3/8/13

I'd been excited about my first shamanic dream circle, but after still not getting much sleep I was probably the only one there who was actually literally asleep and dreaming.

　

3/9/13

Derek and I were planning to get together at 2:00, so at 2:20 I called him to find out where he was and he was still at home so we ended up not getting together.

　

3/10/13

Another really amazing week at Queer Dharma, except in my opinion Jon really needs to get laid.

　

3/11/13

My favorite television show Rupauls Drag Race airs Monday nights then usually I go into work early on Tuesdays to watch it over the internet, but I hadn't thought about the fact that taking Tuesday off from work would mean not watching it until Wednesday so I decided to re-schedule my regular Monday night VITA and go watch Rupauls Drag Race at a bar instead and I ended up leaving the place with Casey again.

　

3/12/13

Got my first rolfing, and I truly believe that my rolfer, Donald Soule, is a genius.

　

3/13/13

Someone was sharing a painful life experience and I broke out laughing which was really awful of me, but it was kind of like trying not to laugh in church.

　

3/14/13

At the final Thursday session of my anatomy for yoga teachers class I led everyone in a pranayama that incorporates dorsiflexion which I designed (well actually the teacher of the class, Shanna, mostly designed it).

　

3/15/13

The plan was to attend the makeup session of my anatomy class (even though I was one of fifteen students with perfect attendance) and then meet up at Downtown with a guy who might be semi-famous who is telling me that his name is Steve, but he canceled so I ended up going to Liars Club after class and meeting Sheri & Jeff there (and Michael and another Steve - hanging out with gays at Liars Club!)

　

3/16/13

Woke up in the morning when Otto jumped up on me, and I did not go to any museums or parades or festivities or anything, but I felt like my life was great.

　

3/17/13

I went to Second Unitarian Church in the morning and the Shambhala Center in the evening, and I'm not sure if I want to get more involved with either of them or withdraw membership from both of them.

　

3/18/13

I had a feeling that I really wanted to go to Chances Dances so after VITA that's what I did.

　

3/19/13

Called in sick to work for a half-day so I could stay in bed with a guy named Gabe whom I met at Chances Dances the night before.

　

3/20/13

Was having a bad time and went to I-Group annoyed but felt better after saying "fuck you" to everyone.

　

3/21/13

My first night at the P.I.T. (primary integration training) group and someone said something that gave me what they call a "charge," and I felt like I jumped out of my chair and was gasping and clutching pearls, shaking with anger at him, especially in the knees like an electrical current, like a maniacal serial killer or something, and after the group confronted it and processed my charge I felt like I'd survived a lightning strike.

　

3/22/13

Didn't sleep much, went to training seminar about emotional intelligence, dinner at Gyu-Kaku, supper at California Pizza Kitchen, another long talk with Chris ("bread crumbs"!?), and in the evening I went to The Flesh Hungry Dog Show at Jackhammer where there was a convention of The Sisters Of Perpetual Indulgence.

　

3/23/13

Sister Dominatrix spanked me with a belt and she was really good at it and it was really amazing and I didn't realize until later how bruised my butt really was, so then when I went to Touche again that night to see the musicians I was proudly showing my bruised butt to anyone I could.

　

3/24/13

Spent a lot of time lying on the couch watching the college basketball tournament in the comfort of my own home and it felt good, and I wasn't planning to go to Queer Dharma but Jon contacted me so I decided to go and it turned out really good.

　

3/25/13

Dan the guy I live with came to VITA because I was unable to keep my mouth shut when he would blather on non-sense about taxes.

　

3/26/13

My plan was to go to work 9 to 5 then go do VITA again after that, but I ended up leaving work early to meet Joshua and look at an apartment which we decided we wanted to apply for then went bowling with Sheri and everyone because Tommy was in town.

　

3/27/13

At I-Group I talked about my issue of wanting to be stable versus wanting to be fun.

　

3/28/13

I refer to the "primary integration training" (P.I.T.), also called "facilitated integration group" (or F.I.G.), as the "fistpig" I-Group because it sounds like PIT / FIG, and this was the first session without facilitators which to me seemed really awkward and clunky but everyone else seemed fine with it.

　

3/29/13

Sexoflex recently came out with a new album and last weekend I was listening to "Piggy Piggy" and then I heard the song "Suck Dick, Eat Cheetos" and wondered what my life is coming to but then, magically, Gloria brought me a 3.5-ounce bag of Cheetos, so I re-committed to working hard and eating healthy and generally being a good boy.

　

3/30/13

Did a drag queen's taxes, got my haircut by Jimmy Ngo for the first time, went to Sheri's place and ate a lot of tacos, watching college basketball, showing people the bruises on my ass.

　

3/31/13

Decided to stay home all day watching television.

　

4/1/13

Took the party bus trip to Olive Garden / Red Lobster and met Richard, and it felt really decadent.

　

4/2/13

The only time I left my apartment all day was to shove Richard out the door at 8:40 and go to and back from my rolfing appointment, other than that I just stayed home napping and watching television.

　

4/3/13

I love chocolate-chip cookie-cake and I was in the same room with a delicious chocolate-chip cookie-cake and fixated on it, tormented by it, incapable of paying attention to anything else, until someone pissed me off and I told him, "For future reference, fuck you," but even though that was annoying I was really happy to be able to stop thinking about the cookie.

　

4/4/13

At the fistpig I-Group we did the trust exercise, then as I was leaving there I got a voicemail from Joshua that the apartment we signed the lease on and for which I mailed a check for first month's rent + security deposit was probably going to fall through after all.

　

4/5/13

After e-mailing and calling the company about my rent + security check and not getting a response, I put a stop-payment on the check, the first-ever stop-payment I've ever put on a check in my entire life, which put me in a bad mood.

　

4/6/13

There were so many things happening, but I stayed home watching college basketball, My Cat From Hell, and a dust bowl documentary (featuring Virginia Frantz) on PBS, and someone dressed as a Mexican wrestler knocked on the door.

　

4/7/13

It was the first time I'd meditated in a couple weeks which was good.

　

4/8/13

Had a good time going to The Call to watch Rupauls Drag Race then going home to watch the men college basketball championship.

　

4/9/13

I'm really good at my job for short periods of time functioning at a high level, but after a while I can't keep it up and I feel really beat-down.

　

4/10/13

I'd planned on going to the Cubs game to watch Richard sing the national anthem but it got called off, so I went to my Wednesday night I-group and ended up doing some pretty heavy work on myself.

　

4/11/13

I felt so extremely happy being with Sheri at Grandma Js then going to the Cubs game and hanging out with Richard for a couple hours after he sang the national anthem.

　

4/12/13

I don't like Fridays because I feel so worn-down from the week, but I do like Mondays because my mental state is so much more refreshed (which is probably because I get sex on the weekends and not during the week), so I was being snappish and Gloria gave me a 10 dollar bill and told me to go buy some drinks this weekend.

　

4/13/13

Good sex at Manscountry, felt sad about my last day of VITA, had a good time with Jon and Khai at Hamburger Marys for supper but afterward we went to a nightclub and Jon is awful at nightclubs.

　

4/14/13

Felt deep sadness.

　

4/15/13

I was in so much pain I didn't know what to do and it was a really dark place, so Sheri suggested a massage which I did and it started to reverse the pain trajectory then after the massage I went to Township to see The Eagles Of Lombard and Bobby Joe Ebola & The Children Macnuggits which was another big up for me.

　

4/16/13

Since I'd gotten so little sleep and was in so much pain the day before I'd expected to go into work feeling bad, but I actually felt better than I had in a long time.

　

4/17/13

There was rain.

　

4/18/13

There was some more rain, Sheri and I hung out after work, also I really came to respect Irwin.

　

4/19/13

I did something stupid and ended up lost in an enormous cemetery, but then at noon Philip picked me up in his car and we went to the New Warrior Training Adventure and I got to escort some men through the registration process and I slept behind the pulpit.

　

4/20/13

Working as a "man of service" at the N.W.T.A. was okay, I was thinking a lot about the time I spent with Bradley four years ago, and did some dancing in the sweat lodge and the drum circle was amazing.

　

4/21/13

The sun was coming up and we had cakes on the griddle, but left the N.W.T.A. and went to Queer Dharma in the evening which was good and Bill drove me home.

　

4/22/13

Victor the landlord called me and we set up an appointment to meet Thursday morning so I'm going to hold my breath that it will all go according to plan.

　

4/23/13

People have said things like "king energy" and "living in his king" and I felt like I was living in my king for at least half of the day which was good.

　

4/24/13

The homecoming / celebration / ceremony of the N.W.T.A. was really good, then afterward my regularly scheduled I-group went out for Mexican food and margaritas.

　

4/25/13

A huge day in my life, full speed: picked up keys to my new apartment, rode the Clark bus with Adam (the Princess) to bikram, rolfing appointment that I could barely stay awake for, during all my train trips I worked hard on memorizing the calling in the directions, Dining Out For Life at Wishbone on Washington, saw the Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche bless the new Shambhala Center, went to my PIT / FIG group meeting early for the leader meeting, did a great job at calling in the directions from memory, admitted that I'd drunk alcohol and smoked marijuana prior to the previous meeting without disclosing it to the group, Mike drove me to the red-line, got home shortly after 11.

　

4/26/13

I went to see the Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche talk at Roosevelt Chapel and there was a musical performance by a brass quintet and I felt happy to be alive and experiencing everything.

　

4/27/13

Moving saga 2013 (part 1): Dan brought a homeless stranger into the apartment, Rahm running along the lake, teenage girls lined up 12 hours early for Carly Rae Jepsen, laundry, it was a beautiful spring day and the new apartment was beautiful (like breath-takingly beautiful) and empty and I sat on the floor eating quesadillas and talking to my brother Bruce, then I didn't think it was going to be possible for me to do everything but somehow I found the strength to get up and do it, and the move wasn't completed yet but it was my first night sleeping in the new apartment.

　

4/28/13

Moving saga 2013 (part 2): I returned the U-Haul and the move was finished by 11:00a and I slept for awhile then went to practice with my new flag football team Ann Sather Sticky Bunz for the first time which was fun but physically I felt like I was pushing myself really far.

　

4/29/13

After work I stopped by my apartment at 5012 Clark for the last time then turned in the keys and walked to Joshua's place where I gave him his set of keys to our new place.

　

4/30/13

It was annoying getting ahold of Jim, but we ended up having a good conversation so I was glad that I did.

　

5/1/13

Woke up feeling that ecstatic sexual creative Beltane energy.

　

5/2/13

Baked brownies in the morning and the PIT / FIG group ate half the dish as we discussed shame.

　

5/3/13

Virginia and I went to Bar On Buena after work.

　

5/4/13

Opening day double-header of flag-football was fun, and the team went to Crew afterward.

　

5/5/13

After weeks of being really happy, I felt sadness but I was happy that the sadness wasn't over-powering.

One-Sentence Highlights From Brent's Life - 11/7/12 - 2/4/13

11/7/12

Before I'd gotten to sleep I'd heard Jon Stewart on the television in the living room say that Barack Obama was projected to have won the POTUS election, but then before 1:00a I woke up and heard Obama's acceptance speech on the television in the living room while I laid in bed.

　

11/8/12

Ever since the beginning of the year I've envisioned an improved, updated information system at work and working with people to make it happen was gratifying but then people deviate from my vision and it's so disheartening.

　

11/9/12

Amanda Palmer released her new music video "Do It With A Rockstar" which got me so excited for so many reasons.

　

11/10/12

The Amanda Palmer concert lived up to expectations, but what seemed more important was that I met a guy named Patrick and we went to lunch, did some grocery shopping and errands, then went back to his place and fucked which was so pure and magical and unplanned.

　

11/11/12

Went to Urban Village Church in the morning and Julian whom I met in 1999 and hadn't seen for many years happened to be there.

　

11/12/12

Someone I didn't know came up to me and said, "You've lost a lot of weight since the last time I saw you," and I said, "Thank you. You look completely different too, so different I didn't even recognize you. Could you remind me of your name?", it was Albert, then because I'm super smooth like that, I said, "I'd like to think I remember attractive guys such as yourself."

　

11/13/12

The 30-day bikram challenge is rough.

　

11/14/12

I got up in the morning and it was deja-vu catching the same bus with the exact same people sitting in the exact same places and arriving at the studio the exact same time as the day before.

　

11/15/12

I became a financeer via Lendsquare for Pie Hole pizza place to open a second location across the street from where I live, where Clarks On Clark used to be.

　

11/16/12

The cast of Rupauls Drag Race season 5 was being officially announced one member at a time through various social media challenges and it got me so worked up.

　

11/17/12

I made some bad decisions, but it could've been worse, plus it was just one day.

　

11/18/12

Got up at 3:30 and was non-stop doing stuff until midnight, most notably during my lunch date with Patrick he told me that he'd been the president of the Log Cabin Republicans.

　

11/19/12

Four hours of sleep, then bikram and work, then Patrick and I went to the homeless youth art show then out a couple places (one of which was Sofo where Sara informed me of Liza's pregnancy!!!) before having more sex, and I got back home at midnight again.

　

11/20/12

Did bikram after work then went to Honky Tonk BBQ in Pilsen with Sheri, and got back home at midnight again.

　

11/21/12

When I'd enjoyed the Charlie Brown Halloween Special so much, they'd advertised the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving Special, so I rushed home from bikram to see it but it just wasn't the same watching it with Dan while he was explaining how he thinks the pyramids were made.

　

11/22/12

Relaxed most of the day watching television.

　

11/23/12

Sons Of Anarchy is the best television show to watch while quipping Rocky-Horror / MST3000 style, like, when I'm watching SOA, I really can not stop myself, but Tiffany and I had a lot of fun with it.

　

11/24/12

Watched the old movie Breakfast At Tiffanys for the first time and it blew my mind.

　

11/25/12

I don't know the details yet, but Susan, Sean, and Phin are leaving the Lakeview Church Of Christ next month. :(

　

11/26/12

A guy gave me an amazing handjob using some vibrators, and it really blew my mind.

　

11/27/12

I put up the Christmas tree at work.

　

11/28/12

Productive day: bikram (wearing a Speedo for the first time) was good, worked on several new projects at work, did some laundry.

　

11/29/12

The key-card that I got on 7/31/12 only worked for a couple months and then on 10/23 I e-mailed the key-card contact person, Lisa, about it and never heard anything back so I sent one follow-up e-mail and still never heard back about it so I've liked Lisa less and less ever since so when she asked if I could bring her printouts off the printer after mine were done, not only did I not bring them to her but I also felt the need to leave a post-it note on her printouts letting her know the reason why which is that I'm upset about not having a key-card, but later I thought about how that was a bratty thing to do and apologized.

　

11/30/12

We just decided to pretend like the weekly reports are also the monthly reports, because people seem not to remember how things have been done.

　

12/1/12

The skin on my penis hurt, but I think it was just from jerking and rubbing it raw so much.

　

12/2/12

I sat and had tea with Jon until 10 or so, but he said the reason he asked me to sit and have tea with him was not because of any recent hostilities.

　

12/3/12

Got my new key-card, which proves that acting like a brat does work, so yay me!

　

12/4/12

In previous years at work, we've sometimes gotten together to decide as a group who would be off which days around Christmas and I've never ever taken any time off work around Christmas, except I told everyone last year that this would be my year to take time off around Christmas (then I visited Oklahoma in July and changed my mind about going there during Christmas and was planning on doing the weekthun instead, but the people at work didn't need to know that) but then it was decided that I would have to take our floating holiday on Christmas Eve instead of New Years Eve like always so that would interfere with my weekthun plan and I rashly bought airplane tickets to Oklahoma.

　

12/5/12

I got lots of stuff to do at work all at once and it made me feel great and powerful.

　

12/6/12

For me strange days are routine and routine days are strange, and maybe it's just one of those things when there are lots of things going on in my life that I can't mentally emotionally handle it all so I project it onto something in the media or pop culture, but the one thing I've been most excited about all week is "Gangnam Style" by Psy reaching one billion views on Youtube (I know I'm late to the "Gangnam Style" party, I've seen it before but it never made that much of an impression so this week it's been my obsessive addictive jam, and it crossed 900,000,000).

　

12/7/12

I texted Sheri saying I didn't feel well which really just meant I felt like staying home and doing my regular Friday night thing instead of going out with her, which is so lame of me, I know.

　

12/8/12

Completing the 30-day bikram challenge, that's 30 sessions of bikram in 30 consecutive calendar days, is a huge accomplishment for me.

　

12/9/12

I was at Township for Jeffis's 44th birthday and people passed around a chocolate egg and everyone took a bite and it looked chocolatey delicious but I didn't realize it had marijuana in it until after I already took a bite, so even though I wasn't prepared to get high on marijuana that night I did but it turned out okay because I wasn't that high.

　

12/10/12

Alana Thompson (Honey Boo Boo)'s official Facebook posted a phone number saying that Lee Thompson (Uncle Poodle) is single now, which is obviously a prank, but I called the phone number less than one minute after it was posted and someone answered and there were little girls screaming in the background then the man who answered yelled profanities and hung up so I truly do believe that it really was Lee with his nieces in the background which is exciting yet frustrating for me but I'm sure it is for him too.

　

12/11/12

Lots of feelings about the last Sex-Positive Film Series.

　

12/12/12

There was an incident on the Clark bus when I got off, it was crowded and this woman had no reason to get up and go stand by the door, but in my mind I labeled her "privelaged princess pushy asshole" etc. which was unfair because I never met her yet the fact remains that she had no reason to get up on a crowded bus and go stand by the door.

　

12/13/12

Heaven / Hell, suicidal to ecstatic, doing bikram and going out to Hydrate to see Mimi Imfurst were both Heaven.

　

12/14/12

I actually did not stay out very late, but got up hungover and went into work and felt absolutely awful suicidal Hell again but work was busy and I felt better after a couple hours then after work I went to Derrick & Michael's (guys I met at Hydrate the night before) party.

　

12/15/12

I cooked stuff and went to Lisa & Udi's dinner party where I was absolutely enthralled in conversation about history, economics, politics, etc.

　

12/16/12

I was really into the Lakeview Church Of Christ for a minute there, and then in the evening at Queer Dharma I turned out to be the one in charge which was unexpected but I acted normal and everything turned out great.

　

12/17/12

Jon and I went to the orchestra, and while we were there made friends with a 25 year-old from China named Shengtian.

　

12/18/12

Greatly enjoyed Homolatte with Julian (whom I recently reconnected with on November 11) and Lars and Scott, and both performers, Jarrett Neal and Jakob Paul.

　

12/19/12

Attended my first "open circle" at the Mankind Project.

　

12/20/12

Was fascinated reading Erik Rhodes Tumblr.

　

12/21/12

"Gangnam Style" reaced 1,000,000,000 views on Youtube.

　

12/22/12

I rented the movie Magic Mike from Specialty Video and it made me wish I were het so I thought I'd go out to a str8 club but I just ended up relaxing at Kopi drinking absinthe.

　

12/23/12

First thing in the morning I wrote out a list of things to do and I accomplished the most important tasks on the list, except the computers at the library were closed for renovations which was annoying.

　

12/24/12

Travel day, home to Chicago's O'hare airport to Oklahoma City's Will Rogers airport to meet Bryan, Darla, Matthew, and Kathryn in their van to drive to Guymon to meet our parents.

　

12/25/12

My first family Christmas since I've been an adult, and there was lots of family there.

　

12/26/12

Not very many people showed up at the Guymon Church Of Christ Wednesday evening worship, but I led a song.

　

12/27/12

Ate breakfast with my 3rd-cousin Josh and lunch with Amada, and Glen took Matthew and I to his regular afternoon coffee.

　

12/28/12

The ones who'd traveled from Oklahoma City to Guymon went back the same way, then I checked into a hotel and met up with Bruce.

　

12/29/12

The hotel I was staying at is known for gay men having promiscuous sex, so that was mainly what I did all day besides taking a break from that and spending time with Bruce.

　

12/30/12

Flew from Oklahoma City airport back to Chicago, went to The Glenwood with the Queer Dharma people.

　

12/31/12

The office at work closed early, and I attended the 10:30p bikram session at the Lincoln Park studio.

　

1/1/13

Kind of the whole highlight of my day was seeing Sheri naked in the bathtub.

　

1/2/13

Signed up for the class Anatomy For Yoga Teachers at Moksha yoga studio.

　

1/3/13

Even though there had been advantages to the outage at work all week long, during the noon hour connectivity was restored so I just didn't feel like doing anything for the rest of the day except browse the internet.

　

1/4/13

I felt unhappy at work again, but then I went to Laura's and we went to see Zoolights at the Lincoln Park Zoo which was very fun and exciting and joyous.

　

1/5/13

Two different 7-11s did not have jalepeno & cream cheese taquitos so I stopped at Linda Guadalajara and watched the snow.

　

1/6/13

Met a 90 year-old man who'd been in a Japanese internment camp (and he seemed to be a really happy carefree person), also Andrew the guy I worked with came to The Glenwood.

　

1/7/13

Elizabeth S. asked me how my day was and I said "six and a half," because there are so many things I could be doing but I get stuck and I just have to work with being stuck.

　

1/8/13

Not happy to find out that the Shambhala Center was sold to James Pritzker who plans to build a 4-floor parking garage there, but very happy and excited during my interview session at Mankind Project.

　

1/9/13

Got home from work before 7:00p and Dan had the heat at 80 degrees and the television on loudly but was not watching it and I was like "What is going on with life?"

　

1/10/13

The first session of my yoga anatomy class made me unexpectedly squeamish, which I'm going to need to get over.

　

1/11/13

After my anatomy for yoga class the night before, I was overly conscious of my joints and bone cartilage.

　

1/12/13

I was feeling dour the way I usually do on Saturday nights thinking how there's something amazing going on that I'll probably miss out on so I just went to Mans Country where I got one of the best blowjobs of my life which really improved my mood.

　

1/13/13

My first Ocean Of Devotion gong wash sound meditation at the Temple Synphoria.

　

1/14/13

Since I use public services, public transit, public laundromat, etc., I encounter a lot of people whom I'm sure did not intentionally set out to be assholes and yet it somehow ended up that they're in public acting like an asshole.

　

1/15/13

I went to Homolatte because I enjoy it and want to support it, but it was so full that I decided it didn't need my support that night and I left.

　

1/16/13

Rahm was on the brown line when I got on, and Braun Thies was born.

　

1/17/13

When I got home from my anatomy for yogis class, the kitchen and bathroom were clean so apparently the long-delayed professional cleaning crew appointment actually happened finally.

　

1/18/13

I know the project that everyone at work is doing is ridiculous and pointless, but it was a long day of work which made me feel good, and Reed left.

　

1/19/13

Met this guy Sid whom I'm riding with in his car to the "New Warrior Training Adventure" next weekend.

　

1/20/13

Enjoyed the presentation at Second Unitarian Church in the morning, and in the evening Jon and I had another one of our good long talks.

　

1/21/13

Enjoyed the rhetoric of the part of the inauguration that I saw, went to Lincolnwood Olive Garden, saw a movie with Jeremiah.

　

1/22/13

Second long day of manual labor not so enjoyable, and I felt really down.

　

1/23/13

Work was a little bit better than the day before, and the weather was a little bit less cold than the day before.

　

1/24/13

Started to understand anatomy more during the third session of my Anatomy For Yogis class.

　

1/25/13

Got up early to cook, went to work, left work early and went to the New Warrior Training Adventure weekend which I was immediately drawn into and loved it.

　

1/26/13

Wow, this was the day when the New Warrior Training Adventure really changed my life.

　

1/27/13

I didn't want to leave.

　

1/28/13

Still too much energy to sleep very much, I felt all stirred up, but I know I did it for a purpose, not just stirring shit up for the hell of it, but I had so much energy without a direction for it, and certain things felt really urgent, like it was going to give me cancer, and things at work could not compete so I quit trying to do work stuff and e-mailed some of my warrior brothers.

　

1/29/13

First good night's sleep since Thursday, I went to work (always feeling sexy in the sweater vest) and had a whole new momentum and clarity so that when I got into an argument with the office manager it wasn't that big of a deal and we all went about our business feeling fine about everything.

　

1/30/13

Sheri came to the homecoming / graduation / celebration of the New Warrior Training which, when I spoke at, I said I didn't want to say it had been life-changing since it'd only been two days but then when I got home from it was my first time running into the guy I dated a year ago and considering that I've spent so much of the past ten months fantasizing about all the ways I was going to bash his face in whenever we ran into each other again, I just calmed myself down and went about my business while he hid from me and I felt like a big strong powerful man for doing that, so just being able to handle that one situation differently, the New Warrior Training really did change my life.

　

1/31/13

During the break in our anatomy class I just laid on the floor in the middle of the loud conversations of my classmates and took a power-nap which felt great.

　

2/1/13

Wanted to go out somewhere and do something, ended up at @mosphere which was nice, met a bunch of people, talked to a bunch of people, had a good night.

　

2/2/13

Went on a date with Kristian Edward something Kilgore (he said he has four names because he's Irish, but I basically don't believe anything he says, but he's hot so whatever) whom I met the night before at @mosphere and we went back to his place, which was the first orgasm I had in over a week.

　

2/3/13

A long day of sadness and happiness and fun and accomplishments.

　

2/4/13

My first night doing VITA for the season went well, no exceptional cases.